White Tulip

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this song is about seeking help.

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I used to think that everything was fucked up and lame
And I’d never forgive myself for what you did to me
I used to think that I’d get another chance to finally say
How much you messed me up when you finally got away
I’d find another way
To forget the empty days
Yeah, I’d find another way
To convince you to stay

Today, like any other day, was another waste of time
Yet I find myself thinking about how you never quite all right
Tonight you might unlock your cage to dig yourself out
Of the hole you keep your casket in for when its time to say good night
You’ll find another way
Through pills and razor blades
Yeah, you’ll find another way
To give up on the life you never had

Oh my god, is this the only way?
Yeah, oh my god, are you going to die today?

I used to think that everyone would one day go away
And now I know that’s true because I’ve seen it all decay
I used to think that I would die in a car beneath a lake
But now I’m scared to think that maybe I will never really change

I’d write another song about my fear of death and sleep
But it’d be just as vain as saying that I forgive you anyway
Yeah, I’ll drink every night and kill off all my brain cells
Maybe then I’ll stop thinking about how I will burn in this hell
But all you really gave me was your neglected youth
And your bipolar illness
I know you grew up broken inside but really
I’m barely out of those years myself

I’ll call in sick to watch TV and replay
All the suicide attempts alone in my brain
And maybe I’ll forgive you for all the things you never said
But maybe I’ll let it all go and forgive myself instead

credits

from Songs for 4 AM EP, released August 7, 2016
Delilah Luna (lyrics, music)

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a glass box New York, New York

my name is delilah luna and i'm a queer trans girl from boston (currently in NYC)

a glass box is an exploration of mental illness, trauma, queerness, the east coast, youth, and everything that life has given me and taken from me

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