Maybe I will sleep tonight Maybe I’ll be all right Follow me, follow me, follow me into the light The moon in the void is bright Maybe I will live through the day So that my lungs will decay Please don’t go, please don’t go, please don’t go away Hold my hand to keep the dark at bay And every time that I’m alone The tremors tear me bone by bone And every time my heart skips a beat I can’t breathe And every night I try to sleep But the fear keeps me awake I don’t know who I am anymore Without pills and blades and all my pain Cut my skin, cut my skin, cut my skin again So that I won’t die in vain

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I just want you out of my head But that won’t bring you back from the dead And what did you say? That you’d never go away? But what did you say? That I could die today? I just want you to haunt my dreams again Before I crash my car off a bridge And what did you say? That you’d never go away? But what did you say? That I could die today? And I cut my skin like paper But please just let me take her Back to my bed where we belong We can spend all night singing this song And maybe I’m not safe And maybe I’ll die today But I’ll let you go, okay? So you can be someone else

Year one, you still have time left Your arms will turn red And you will see your ghost Yeah, you’ll stare at headlights But the car will stop And you will catch your breath Year two, your body’s full of regrets And your mind is full of dust With lines and pills and razors You’ll only self-destruct For another night of fun Year three, yeah, she stills love you Even though she’s lying through her teeth You’ll spend every night awake Thinking that she’ll come home But you only have so much time left And I’ll admit That I can’t forgive myself It was four years ago today That you thought you wouldn’t be here to say I’ll admit That I can’t forgive myself And I’ll admit That I can’t forgive myself I can’t admit That I still care about this All the years I spent at home Thinking about how I will die alone

That’s how the world began This is all according to plan Your hand in mine, our lips intertwined This is our life in denial The bruises on your neck, the blood in your veins This is what’s left of our remains And this is how the world will end Do you think that I will plot my revenge? (Well, it doesn’t really matter now anyway) When we were giants Did you ever stop to see the world? (Yeah, well, before it burned to ashes and dust) Well, I’ve been married to the moon And I’ll be buried underground soon Yeah, the writing’s on the wall Maybe I will follow sleep’s call And I, and I, and I, and I And I, and I, and I, and I Feel your teeth sinking into my heart, yeah

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Time heal me Please breathe I think my body’s sick Like you always said The bruises and cuts on my flesh Staring back again Can I see your skin To make sure you’re still you I think my body’s sick Like you always said Can you see me like I do? Do you hate me like I love you, like I do? Can you see me like I do, like I do? (I think my body’s brave) Do you hate me like I love you, like I do? (To deal with my sick head) I think my body’s brave

A night in September Collapsed on the floor But we can’t remember What all this was for But I can’t fake All the empty smiles I make But I am free As helpless as I seem Free from the fear That keeps me from sleep But not in my dreams But am I really weak? As helpless as I seem I’m scared that my mother will die Like the time my brother found her wrapped in curtains With blood on the floor Or what about the time my father told me to cut my skin And cry myself to sleep His eyes were dead and nothing he said made me feel Like I would ever be safe again Maybe I’m weak for thinking about these things Over and over and over in my head But I think I need to just start things Over again as a different person But I am free As helpless as I seem Free from the fear That keeps me from sleep But not in my dreams, but not in my dreams But I am here As reckless as I’ve been Tonight I will sleep For as long as I live It was raining out when I stepped onto the pavement The drops were hitting my skin so calm and gently You know a year can change you One day you’re staring into headlights, only to wake up four years later still Wondering why you didn’t keep laying on the ground Some day I’d like to fall asleep before the sun comes up Instead of thinking about all the times I said, “no I’d rather stay home” ‘Cause oh my god when will I fucking Learn that this means nothing, if I weren’t so lazy, I’d Pick up the bottle now and again, I’d cut deeper than a simple scratch I’d call you to tell you that I miss you now and then, I Feel like people are always lying to me, hiding from me, hiding their Truth from me, like they can see me for the monster I’ve truly become And yet I still think back to all the times my parents Told me that my body is broken, that I mean nothing That despite my best efforts, I have to prove that I’m still Worth love, worth love, worth love, worth love We weren’t artists, we weren’t creators, we were salvaged, but not saviors We were just kids running around the playground pretending to be others Like my father once told me, do you think you’re fucking special for wanting To kill yourself, to kill yourself, to kill yourself, to kill yourself? Try working since you were eight, try healing from a broken Childhood, well maybe I did, maybe I did spend all those Years hating myself, choking myself, waiting in fear and pain for Death to come, well, don’t you think I’ve had enough? But I’m so scared of dying, I’m so scared of living And I’m so scared of everything that God has never given me Tell me about the things that I can never have Until I’m ready to burn in hell for all the sins that I have cut into my skin That I’ve cut into my skin That I’ve come to love again That I’ve come to fear again I set myself on fire to burn those around me

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And the bright lights stain my mind Watching the hollow hours crawl by And with heavy sighs and empty eyes We will lie to ourselves that things are fine But we both know it’s just killing time To kill the fears we feel inside I won’t say that it’s all right That it’s you that still keeps me up at night And when will I realize how I’ve spent the past year of my life Maybe it’s the lack of sleep that makes me afraid to die I won’t say that it’s all right That it’s you that still keeps me up at night And maybe it’s the fluorescent lighting That reminds me of every single time we ever slept together

We set the sun on our final days Death comes to all of us in different ways You are not the breath in my lungs You are not the blood in my veins You can’t keep me alive and young You are not the skin that I cut You are not the demons I love You can’t cure me of disease We set the sun on our final days Death comes to all of us in different ways We set the sun on our final days To find out what we’ve become Be the empty sky that takes us away We set the sun on our final days Death comes to all of us in different ways

Falling in love essentially is waiting to die Falling in love eventually will kill you inside The way you learn not to care Is to be so broken there are no pieces left to make you whole Falling in love essentially is waiting to die Falling in love eventually will kill you inside How can I sleep when pills fail me? How do I stop being scared of what’s to come? Do you ever think how long is forever? Falling in love essentially is waiting to die Falling in love eventually will kill you inside

Maybe I’ll sleep tonight Maybe everything’s all right Here we are again With the silence that comes at the end I’ll admit that I still miss you I’ll admit this is nothing new All these bodies and their ghosts The moon in her void, come to take us home This is nothing new Yeah, this is really nothing new And then the rain came down and flooded everything you could see We stepped out and splashed in the puddles And watched the sun shine through the leaves Until the clouds parted and the sun set on our final days You could see the moon hanging in the sky It really was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen But maybe it just a reflection of me, of me Yeah, well, we thought we were invincible But we were only kids, you know We could only see so far into the future We thought we could live forever But that was just a childhood dream Yeah, but now that I’ve spent so many nights Choked by the fear that I will die I can see now that nothing I will ever do can save me This is nothing new So just tell me “I love you” Will you hold my hand Until the very end? I want to watch sunsets in color So I can dream about them in black and white Birth is trauma and transition is abandonment And nothing will ever be right So just tell me that you love me Call me by my name like it’s a dirty secret resting upon your lips So just tell me that you love me So I can learn to sleep again Just tell me that you love me So I will never fear again ‘Cause someday I will die And I will make peace with that